Greetings, Beloveds. I am on a manic rebound after being sick since the end of September. There has been a trip to urgent care, 2 allergic drug reactions, constant antibiotics and antivirals, and a hospitalization through the emergency room for which my insurance company has denied coverage. And those are just the highlights.
Today is the first day since I don’t remember when that I have not been nauseated, in pain, or hugging the toilet. It’s a hell of a way to lose 10 pounds. I actually slept more than 4 hours in a row and was able to tolerate real Greek food yesterday without an immediate trip to the toilet within an hour of eating. I went adventuring with my sister, had good food, and saw a wonderful movie. I couldn’t ask for a better day or more fun. It was sorely needed.
Somewhere in all the chaos and depression I initiated the process of writing a formal business plan and applying for grant funding to expand and develop Freak Flag Dye Company. As part of the rebound my head is bursting with creative ideas and grand schemes. I am rushing to get all the details on paper before I forget them and formulate plans to see them come to pass. Reality will eventually settle in and I will have to buckle down and do the grunt work. I am looking forward to seeing what eventually manifests. My experience at the moment is much like being inside a freshly shaken snow globe.
So. . . .deep breath. . . a few grounding exercises and hugs from my friends. . . additions to the ongoing list in my daily gratitude journal. . .time to get real. Today I feel bulletproof, tomorrow I may be curled up under my blankie crying again.
Wish me luck. Much love to you all.